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		<title>Call for WRITERS!</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 14 Feb 2012 22:41:51 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kana Tyler</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Quality Communication Solutions (the company with which I&#8217;ve been freelancing full-time since September) is doing booming business, and needs some more writers!  QCS is stepping up its game, ramping up its marketing, revamping its website and logo (those are fun things I get to mess around with, thanks to my license-to-play in the form of [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=kanatyler.com&amp;blog=27794538&amp;post=1919&amp;subd=kanatyler&amp;ref=&amp;feed=1" width="1" height="1" />]]></description>
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<p>Quality Communication Solutions (the company with which I&#8217;ve been freelancing full-time since September) is doing booming business, and needs some more writers!  QCS is stepping up its game, ramping up its marketing, revamping its website and logo (those are fun things <em>I</em> get to mess around with, thanks to my license-to-play in the form of a &#8220;Director of Media &amp; Communication&#8221; title)&#8211;and yet we&#8217;re already at maximum capacity with regard to what our current team can handle.  <em>Sooo&#8230;</em>  <strong>We need more writers!</strong></p>
<p>Let me tell you a bit about the gig (because, in case you hadn&#8217;t realized it yet, I&#8217;m trying to recruit YOU, my writing-friends) and then I&#8217;ll show you where to apply.</p>
<p>QCS is owned by Steve Brown&#8211;a writer himself, who just last month made the &#8220;leap&#8221; of quitting his day-job (well, <em>night</em>-job in his case) to manage this business full-time.  He does the work of bringing in clients, and distributes the content-writing assignments to his team of writers.</p>
<div id="attachment_1920" class="wp-caption alignleft" style="width: 310px"><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/qcs-writer-resources.png"><img class="size-medium wp-image-1920" title="qcs WRITER RESOURCES" src="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/qcs-writer-resources.png?w=300&#038;h=155" alt="" width="300" height="155" /></a><p class="wp-caption-text">Resource Page for QCS Writers... Includes writing instructions, invoice form, Q&amp;A forum, pay schedule, team updates, &amp; other goodies</p></div>
<p><em><strong>A day in the life of a QCS Writer&#8230; </strong></em> Steve parcels out writing assignments as they come in from clients and posts each writer&#8217;s projects in an online file-management system, so I can log into my own folder at any time and see what I have lined up.  Every assignment comes with a 24-hour deadline, and when I&#8217;m done with each article, I upload it to the same online folder, where our editor can pick it up and take it from there.</p>
<p>When I have questions, Steve is available pretty much all the time on Google Chat and Skype, AND (this one I&#8217;m proud of) we now have a separate web-page dedicated to <a href="http://http://qcswriters.wordpress.com/" target="_blank">QCS Staff Writers&#8217; Resources</a>. (Check it out&#8230; Several of the pages are password-protected as private for the QCS team, but you can get a feel for what we have going on.)</p>
<p>Steve is looking for writers who can commit to at least 2,500 words per day (on weekdays), which is usually 4 or 5 articles. Weekend-work is always optional&#8211;if you&#8217;re looking for some extra on your week&#8217;s paycheck, you can pipe up to take some weekend assignments, but it&#8217;s not an <em>expectation</em>.</p>
<p><em><strong><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/salary.png"><img class="alignright  wp-image-1923" title="salary" src="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/salary.png?w=182&#038;h=178" alt="" width="182" height="178" /></a>Pay for a QCS Writer&#8230;</strong></em> Steve pays all of us promptly <em>every</em> <em>Monday</em> via PayPal. [Pause here for me to happy-dance! I still can't believe I'm getting <em>paid</em> to write!] For tax purposes, we&#8217;re considered independent contractors, so he&#8217;s not deducting anything from the payments, although PayPal does nip about 2% as a surcharge on each one.  The payscale for writing is a sliding scale according to how many words are in each article ($2.50 for 600 words being a pretty standard-sized piece). If you go with that minimum commitment, we&#8217;re talking about $50 a week&#8230;</p>
<p>But also keep in mind that you can  take on as much <em>additional</em> work as you choose&#8211;pretty much the only limitation here is how much you actually CAN write in a week.  (And that&#8217;s a different answer for each of us&#8211;so I truly can&#8217;t tell you &#8220;how many hours&#8221; the minimum work-count takes, because it will be different for you than it is for me.  It&#8217;s even different for <em>me</em> from day to day, depending on what topic I&#8217;m writing about&#8230;)  I know I&#8217;ll also be asked how much a person can reasonably expect to make&#8211;and that, too, is dependent on each individual&#8217;s situation and speed.  I don&#8217;t mind sharing that my weekly writing-check ranges from $200 to $300&#8211;because that&#8217;s the amount of writing I can &#8220;reasonably&#8221; fit into my life.</p>
<p>I very much enjoy the fact that I&#8217;m getting work <em>handed</em> to me every day instead of spending my time combing the internet for writing-jobs, so the time I do spend is time directly devoted to the word-count for which I&#8217;ll be paid.  All I have to do is <em>write</em>.  Although that does lead me to&#8230;</p>
<p><em><strong>Challenges for a QCS Writer&#8230;</strong></em>  I realized after my last recruiting-post (just six weeks ago&#8211;business is growing <em>fast</em>!) that I&#8217;d done our newcomers a disservice by not talking much about what this commitment involves.  As I said, Steve is looking for writers who are willing to commit to a minimum of 2,500 words most days, and the deadlines are <em>truly critical</em>.  If we (as a team) don&#8217;t get our work to the clients as promised, we lose clients.  Simple as that.</p>
<p><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/sling.png"><img class="alignleft  wp-image-1924" title="sling" src="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/sling.png?w=210&#038;h=209" alt="" width="210" height="209" /></a>Having said that, there&#8217;s also plenty of room for flexibility <em>IF</em> you communicate with Steve about your schedule.  When I was at the hospital for a few days because of Keoni&#8217;s knee-replacement, for example, I asked for <em>less</em> work than my usual&#8211;and when I was on the road for <em>Western Byways</em> magazine for a few days, I requested <em>no</em> work from Steve.  If he knows what&#8217;s going on, that&#8217;s not a problem&#8211;what IS a problem is when he assigns ten articles to a writer and hasn&#8217;t heard back when the deadline arrives, and <em>then</em> the writer explains why it didn&#8217;t get done.  At that point it&#8217;s too late, and somebody else is scrambling to get those pieces written before the client walks&#8230;  (Often that &#8220;somebody&#8221; is ME&#8211;so I confess I have an additional <em>personal</em> interest in bringing on new writers who can handle deadlines. [grin]</p>
<p>If you&#8217;re wondering whether Steve will consider a freelancing &#8220;newbie&#8221; whose writing experience doesn&#8217;t (yet) include writing-for-pay, the answer is YES.  Quite simply, he&#8217;s looking for people who <em>(1)</em> Write Well, and <em>(2)</em> Respect Deadlines.</p>
<p><em><strong>Interested? </strong></em> If you have questions about any of this, please feel free to post them in the comments here (or if you&#8217;re not comfortable with that, you can email me: kana.tyler@gmail.com&#8211;although I&#8217;d <em>prefer</em> the &#8220;comments&#8221; area just because it enables everyone to see the answers)&#8230;  Either way, I&#8217;ll be answering. :)</p>
<p>And if you think you&#8217;d like to give QCS a try, there&#8217;s a <strong><a href="http://qcswriters.wordpress.com/about/apply-to-write-for-qcs/" target="_blank">quick-and-easy application form</a></strong> on our Writer&#8217;s Resource Page. <strong> I&#8217;m hoping to see you there!</strong></p>
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<p><strong>Feb 15 Addendum:</strong>  Great questions below (and hopefully some helpful answers) including what types of writing we end up doing&#8230;  And in response to one of the requests below, I&#8217;m attaching a few of the pieces I&#8217;ve written in the last couple weeks, so you can get a better feel for the job&#8230; (Click on any of the titles below to read the article; bolded words are the keywords provided by clients&#8230;)</p>
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<li><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/a-cheese-tour.docx">A Cheese Tour</a></li>
<li><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/black-decker-cm1650b-coffee-maker.docx">Black &amp; Decker CM1650B coffee maker</a></li>
<li><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/how-can-i-stop-smoking-weed.docx">How Can I Stop Smoking Weed Without Checking into Rehab?</a></li>
<li><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/murder-mystery-phoenix.docx">Murder Mystery Phoenix</a></li>
<li><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/socks-say-it-all-at-the-office.docx">Socks Say it All at the Office</a></li>
<li><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/the-ashoka-diamond-ring-a-legacy-of-love.docx">The Ashoka Diamond Ring&#8211;A Legacy of Love</a></li>
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		<title>Poetry When Slammed</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 13 Feb 2012 17:42:26 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>Kana Tyler</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Have you ever been to a poetry slam?  At its best, it&#8217;s a smashed-together combination of art and improv, alive with wit and wordplay and excitement.  Of course, it can also really suck. Depends on who&#8217;s on stage.  Not that I have a lot of room to judge, since I haven&#8217;t had the guts to [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=kanatyler.com&amp;blog=27794538&amp;post=1883&amp;subd=kanatyler&amp;ref=&amp;feed=1" width="1" height="1" />]]></description>
			<content:encoded><![CDATA[<p>Have you ever been to a poetry slam?  At its best, it&#8217;s a smashed-together combination of art and improv, alive with wit and wordplay and excitement.  Of course, it can also really suck. Depends on who&#8217;s on stage.  Not that I have a lot of room to judge, since I haven&#8217;t had the guts to try it myself.  Poetry <em>performance</em>, yes&#8211;in the form of a poetry-<em>reading</em> with pages I&#8217;d already written. But the slam? I bow to those who have the guts.  Well, to those who have the guts and don&#8217;t suck.  But that&#8217;s the trick, isn&#8217;t it? I don&#8217;t know which I&#8217;d be&#8211;so I haven&#8217;t yet decided if poetry slamming should go on my Bucket List or my Fuck-It List&#8230;</p>
<p>Poetry when I&#8217;ve <em>been</em> slammed, though&#8230; That I can talk about.</p>
<p><a href="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/poets-market.jpg"><img class="alignleft size-full wp-image-1905" title="poets market" src="http://kanatyler.files.wordpress.com/2012/02/poets-market.jpg?w=645" alt=""   /></a>A blogging-friend was asking me last week about publishing poetry, and the best advice I can offer on that topic is to check out the <strong><a href="http://www.amazon.com/gp/product/1599632306/ref=as_li_ss_tl?ie=UTF8&amp;tag=kanaschro-20&amp;linkCode=as2&amp;camp=1789&amp;creative=390957&amp;creativeASIN=1599632306">2012 Poet’s Market</a></strong>, which is a great resource for pretty much every publication everywhere that publishes poetry, with all the specs on how to submit, what (or if) they pay, what types they’re looking for, whether they accept simultaneous submissions (meaning you can send a poem to multiple publishers at the same time… or not), what percentage of submissions they accept, and all those good stats.  Poetry doesn&#8217;t tend to <em>pay</em>&#8211;but it does tend to publish.  And hey, it was the thrill of the decade for me to pick up the <em>Anthology of Idaho Women Poets</em> at my Barnes &amp; Noble and see my name on one of the pages.  (Of course, none of you could have found it at <em>your</em> Barnes &amp; Noble&#8211;it was a local offering only&#8211;but I&#8217;ll be honest, I was thrilled anyway&#8230;)</p>
<p>The same blogging-friend asked if my favorite poem could be found here on Kana&#8217;s Chronicles, and I had to answer &#8220;not yet&#8221;&#8211;but that&#8217;s easily remedied.  The following is a piece written over the three months when my youngest daughter, twelve weeks premature and weighing two pounds, was &#8220;imprisoned&#8221; in the Neonatal Intensive Care Unit (NICU). I&#8217;ve written some about this (<a title="Amazing Grace, how sweet the SOUNDS" href="http://kanatyler.com/2011/11/22/amazing-grace-how-sweet-the-sounds/" target="_blank">Amazing Grace, How Sweet the SOUNDS</a>) but hadn&#8217;t shared the poem&#8230;  Just one note to avoid confusion, before I turn over this post to myself-of-eight-years-ago: a couple references to myself by name are using my name-of-eight-years ago&#8230;  During a different marriage, and when I went by my first name rather than my middle.  (<a title="Words Have Meaning, Names Have Power" href="http://kanatyler.com/2011/12/04/words-have-meaning-names-have-power/" target="_blank">Post about names here</a>, if you&#8217;re curious&#8230;)</p>
<p>So without further ado, here&#8217;s <em>Neonate</em>&#8230; Poetry written when I&#8217;d been slammed by life.</p>
<h3 align="center"><strong>Neonate</strong></h3>
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<p>When the baby stops</p>
<p>breathing, an alarm rings in the NICU.</p>
<p>At home, the process is reversed;</p>
<p>when the phone rings, the mother stops&#8211;</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>The baby lives in a box.  That plastic box, there.</p>
<p>The baby is an electrical appliance</p>
<p>on a short cord.</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>three months early</p>
<p>can a baby</p>
<p>live?</p>
<p>No one will tell me</p>
<p>at the hospital where I arrive</p>
<p>spilling amniotic fluid</p>
<p>three months early</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>water broke</p>
<p>in my kitchen</p>
<p><em>not good</em></p>
<p>calmly</p>
<p>called a ride</p>
<p>mopped, changed pants,</p>
<p>woke my son</p>
<p>bid him brightly bye in the car</p>
<p>into the doors where someone would know what to do</p>
<p><em>then</em> began to cry</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>this community, colony of moms,</p>
<p>our lives in orbit</p>
<p>around the NICU&#8211;</p>
<p>I introduce myself where we meet</p>
<p>at the phone outside the locked door,</p>
<p>scrub-in sink, breast milk freezer.</p>
<p>We don&#8217;t shake hands.  We have all scrubbed, but we are nervous</p>
<p>of hands.</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>The next crib over, Jose</p>
<p>is empty already,</p>
<p>not a mom here I know</p>
<p>(week down, months to go)</p>
<p>we are not, after all,</p>
<p>in this together</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>I pump forty ounces of milk</p>
<p>a day for a baby only fifty</p>
<p>ounces herself</p>
<p>and three times a night I sit up</p>
<p>in bed expressing</p>
<p>milk without a baby</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>Day 12 I can&#8217;t pick her up have never held</p>
<p>my baby,</p>
<p>mother&#8217;s and daughter&#8217;s</p>
<p>wails on either side of plastic walls</p>
<p>I ricochet from the Plexiglas barrier</p>
<p>till I&#8217;m able again</p>
<p>to pretend I&#8217;m coping</p>
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<p>***</p>
<p>Lullabye</p>
<p><em>I&#8217;m sorry</em></p>
<p><em>little half-baked</em></p>
<p><em>baby, shhh, Mommy&#8217;s here</em></p>
<p>***</p>
<p>Baby Stats</p>
<p>Units</p>
<p>of measurement, units of progress</p>
<p>or regress</p>
<p>cc&#8217;s of breastmilk, grams of baby,</p>
<p>frequency of desats, occurrence of apnea</p>
<p><em>her body barely filing</em></p>
<p><em>            my two hands</em></p>
<p><em>            graying, unmoving.</em></p>
<p><em>            In my hands</em></p>
<p><em>            she has stopped breathing.</em></p>
<p>statistics, routine notation</p>
<p>on today&#8217;s chart</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>I hate the phone</p>
<p><em>It&#8217;s Janna Vega to see Elena,</em> each day at the locked door</p>
<p>a bead on my rosary</p>
<p>this prayer repeated</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>disposable vessels</p>
<p>threaded</p>
<p>through this tiny body so unready</p>
<p>dozens of times a day</p>
<p>her life re-starts</p>
<p>Easter afternoon another infection</p>
<p>rosary occupying</p>
<p>hands empty of baby</p>
<p>HolyMaryfullofGrace merging</p>
<p>with this new IV drip</p>
<p>of antibiotic, drip</p>
<p>of Grace and I am praying</p>
<p>to ultrasound screens, to shrill alarms</p>
<p>to antibiotics,</p>
<p>to a stuffed frog, to pink blankets</p>
<p>to God in visible forms</p>
<p>***</p>
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<p>I can translate every alarm.</p>
<p>Oxygen desaturation, heart rate, infusion complete</p>
<p>I hear</p>
<p>in my sleep</p>
<p>I dream myself</p>
<p>outside the NICU door, barred</p>
<p>from entering, a stream</p>
<p>of nurses exiting sadly</p>
<p>assuring me <em>she&#8217;s fine</em></p>
<p>***</p>
<p>In the evening, in the NICU</p>
<p>a day-nurse calls me from home,</p>
<p>we hang up laughing.</p>
<p>Sum up my life: I&#8217;m taking social calls</p>
<p>in the NICU</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>At Entrance Five still in maternity wear</p>
<p>new mom watches new dad strap in new baby</p>
<p>to drive home, finished</p>
<p>with this hospital.</p>
<p>To see my daughter,</p>
<p>I stride into Entrance Five pulling off my sunglasses</p>
<p>fiercely</p>
<p>aware there&#8217;s room for jealousy in a flat belly.</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>The Traveling Parent Show</p>
<p>goes home empties</p>
<p>the dishwasher, explains</p>
<p>how to put on pants</p>
<p>pumps breasts, grades quizzes, changes</p>
<p>wet sheets, slices onions</p>
<p>defines <em>Amen</em></p>
<p><em> ***</em></p>
<p><em>Amen</em> means &#8220;thank you, God, for listening.&#8221;</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>one nurse hails another:</p>
<p>&#8220;<em>Mom Cervantes on the phone&#8221;</em></p>
<p><em> </em></p>
<p>which makes me Mom Vega</p>
<p>my son lugs his mailbox into the kitchen where</p>
<p>I sit with coffee and journal, logging</p>
<p>her removed oxygen tube and</p>
<p>his pet dragon&#8217;s change of color&#8211;</p>
<p><em>&#8220;Here comes your mailman!</em></p>
<p><em>See this mail is for you: it says:</em></p>
<p><em>Janna&#8230;  Vega&#8230;  Mommy!&#8221;</em></p>
<p>my name</p>
<p>***</p>
<p>I ask questions full of qualifiers&#8211;</p>
<p>recognizing the limited powers of medical fortune-telling,</p>
<p>and doctors&#8217; desire to avoid</p>
<p>any promise that might break</p>
<p>Dr. Lawrence to his tape recorder:</p>
<p><em>&#8220;Mother asked appropriate questions.&#8221;</em></p>
<p>No, Mother asked questions</p>
<p>he might feel unconstrained to answer.</p>
<p>The other questions I&#8217;m not asking</p>
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<p><em>him.</em></p>
<p>***</p>
<p>From bare dirt by the emergency</p>
<p>entrance where I came in</p>
<p>daffodils come and gone, tulips</p>
<p>past, apple petals replaced</p>
<p>by apple leaves, roses coming on,</p>
<p>I am still parking</p>
<p>here marking time botanically</p>
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		<description><![CDATA[Reblogged from Emmie Mears: Today&#8217;s post is by Friday Fellow and blogger Kana Tyler. She was one of my first friends on WordPress, and she has been an inspiration to me since she first discovered my blog. Kana is a survivor and a fabulous writer, and I urge you to all check out her blog. [...]<img alt="" border="0" src="http://stats.wordpress.com/b.gif?host=kanatyler.com&amp;blog=27794538&amp;post=1887&amp;subd=kanatyler&amp;ref=&amp;feed=1" width="1" height="1" />]]></description>
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Today&#8217;s post is by Friday Fellow and blogger Kana Tyler. She was one of my first friends on WordPress, and she has been an inspiration to me since she first discovered my blog. Kana is a survivor and a fabulous writer, and I urge you to all check out her blog. I know you will love her words as much as I do. A Learning-Journey Toward Valuing my Gender…  And Those who Share it! I labored for a lot of years under the weight of an odd prejudice. I was determined not to be considered a girl. And I don’t &hellip;
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